Pain

It's almost 5am. I am going to take some time away from the blog until I can get out of chemo fog before I post again. The pain is keeping me awake. The pain is everywhere... it starts at my scalp and wraps itself around my neck, down my shoulders, deep into my spine and continues to move down my body. It has worked its way deep into every fiber of my being. I almost start crying because of the pain and self pity, but the tears hurt my eyes. The cure to my cancer is to literally have life sucked out of my body. Right now I wonder why I'm keeping this blog. Do I ever want to look back on this and relive it?